Tuesday, March 9, 2010

Elizabeth Redeye, a Story of Friends, Grandmothers, and a Singer From Long Ago

Nearly thirty years ago my mother's house burned to the ground. A handful of photos, tucked inside a tin container, survived. One of those photos sits on my desk, its edges blackened, its color faded. In the photo my brother, home from Vietnam and sporting a new beard, stands at my mother's ironing board, pressing a shirt. Yah, apron or no apron, he's macho, but he knows how to do a mean press. (Click on the photo for a closer look) Behind him against the wall stands her sewing machine, a handsome Singer treadle Model 66-1 in its tiger-oak "drawing room cabinet". Fanciful decals adorn its black paint. That photo is all that remains of that machine. (The rest of these photos are of Elizabeth Redeye, the real subject of this post.)

I learned to sew on that machine, beginning with doll dresses and progressing to dresses for myself. Once while treadling at a furious speed I sewed through the tip of my thumb, breaking the needle. The lesson was well-learned and thereafter I kept my fingers a safe distance from the pressure foot.

The left side of the cabinet held five drawers hidden behind a vertical door. I often rummaged through those drawers, fingering half-used spools of thread or admiring the metal attachments.

My mother showed me how to lay fabric out on the dining room table and to hold the pattern in place with heavy coffee mugs. Later, in Home Economics class, I learned how to straighten the grain of fabric, press properly, and make a variety of seams. Even after I moved away from home I sewed most of my clothing. First on a black Singer sewing machine purchased at a thrift shop. Then on a vintage Kenmore purchased at a neighbor's auction.

Then I began making quilts. And I began finding vintage Singer machines at yard sales. Several of them! I had become a "collector". And I learned how to take them apart, clean and oil, and adjust a fine stitch.

About 1999 I met a fellow quilter in Ohio via the internet. We emailed daily, chattering about our quilts and various other things in our daily lives. I admired her bold use of bright batiks and she exclaimed over the precision of my piecing. We each love our vintage Singer machines. She named her 1948 Singer 201 "Cecil Faye" in honor of two grandmothers. I named mine "Leona" after its previous owner, an elderly neighbor.

And then my Ohio email buddy sent a photo of a Singer treadle she had purchased in years past. I oohed and aahed and admired, for it was almost a duplicate of the one upon which I learned to sew. She had named the machine "Elizabeth Redeye" (Elizabeth for the eight Elizabeths in her family tree and Redeye for its red decals). And then that woman (who loves stirring up trouble) made an offer which I was certain I would never be able to accept. She said that if I ever showed up on her doorstep in Ohio the machine was mine. At that time I lived in California. As much as I coveted (yes, that's the word!) that machine, the 2600 miles that separated us just seemed too much.

Then, on that fateful Tuesday in September 2001, I was visiting my daughter in Minnesota when the Towers fell. She and I spent the next several days glued to the news. Although the airlines were shut down for days I managed to board my scheduled flight on Saturday and flew home to California. The fellow seated on my right, a New Zealander, had been near the World Trade Centers. He had been evacuated from his hotel and had lost everything...luggage, clothing, computer, passport. He had to acquire a temporary passport at the NZ consulate in order to return home. He was shaken. Who wouldn't be? Our world had changed. We all changed. Over the next two years I experienced an unsettling, a feeling of having lost control over the events of my life. I went about my days with a small nag of trepidation affecting all that I did.

In the midst of all this ensuing uncertainty a thought came to me. I would drive to Ohio. I could take control of this much of my life. I would go off on a 2600 mile adventure and do it by myself. My hubby gave me his blessing to drive his shiny silver pickup to my friend's house and home again. (Trusting soul, he!)

When I showed up on her doorstep my friend had a welcome sign on the front lawn. We laughed as we met each other face-to-face for the first time. We had a long list of things to do during the three-day visit. We made a trip to a nearby quilt shop in a barn, a huge place with tall rows of bolts of fabric, a paradise for quilters. She cooked her favorite chili. We played on her quilting machine. We had tea with a group of other Ohio quilters that we had met online. We laughed and giggled and played with fabric.

In our emails my friend's words had been witty and full of anecdotes of family and home. I had imagined her voice as a slow drawl and instead her words were quick and as wise and funny face-to-face as she had been in her emails. I met her family. I met her cat. We toured her flower garden. She showed me the finely crafted cabinet her wood-working hubby had made for Cecil Faye, her Singer 201. Oh, my, that man knows how to work wood. Drawers galore. Wide sewing surface. Cecil Faye is much loved.

And my friend presented me with Elizabeth Redeye. The machine was simply gorgeous and only my best manners kept me from jumping up and down with excitement. She, her husband, and I managed to load Elizabeth into the back of my husband's pickup, making certain she was stable and secure, protected from the elements under the topper for her long journey.

My 2600-mile trip home was an adventure in "I can do it". A silver-haired grandma, driving a shiny pickup toting a vintage Singer treadle, radio blaring loud, pumping my own gas, reading maps, guzzling coffee and diet Pepsi, braving heavy traffic in large cities, proving nothing to anyone except to myself.

As I pressed westward I imagined the women who traveled at yesteryear's pace in wagons drawn by horses or oxen, their scant sewing supplies tucked in a trunk or perhaps ready at hand to sew a few stitches at a moment's notice, stitches that might provide practical things as well as things of beauty. I thought of trail dust and of precious belongings left behind or cast aside as wagons needed their loads lightened. I felt a kinship with these women, knowing that life today brings its own hardship and travail.

Elizabeth Redeye now sits in my living room. She is a reminder of the generosity of a friend, of my sewing past, and of lives long past of grandmothers and great-grandmothers. It is good to sit down with Elizabeth, to quiet the noise of daily life to a soft hum, no louder than the noise of a treadle sewing machine. This week Elizabeth will be sewing together more squares of fabric for Project Linus. Her previous owner, in Ohio, is a PL coordinator and the product of Elizabeth's efforts will be mailed to Ohio.

(The age of vintage Singer sewing machines can be determined by the Serial number. This particular Model No. 66-1 was manufactured somewhere around 1910 or soon thereafter. The original instruction manual is "Form 7876 Reissue March 9, 1911". The oak parlor cabinet, or drawing room cabinet, as it was called is a Model 21.

This particular cabinet has a spring-loaded lift mechanism. Touch a small button on the front of the cabinet and the machine lifts to its sewing position. Pretty nifty. Tucked away in the drawers are a complete set of attachments for fancy sewing...a subject for another time.)

Monday, March 8, 2010

Preparing You For the Elizabeth Redeye Mystery!

I went down to the library this weekend and sat with four quilting friends around a quilting frame. These quilters have been meeting faithfully for years and they've quilted many a quilt. I join them now and then. On the way out the door I noticed this yellow tape. Some heavy chunks of ice had fallen from the high tile roof. Sure glad I wasn't standing there when it happened!
The sun was shining so when I got home I left the garage door open to let in the solar energy. It looks like some Neighbor Kitty found the open door and thought the hood of the car was a cozy place. Kitty padded here and there, leaving gray kitty prints all over the hood.

This afternoon I took my little jar of sourdough starter out of the fridge and mixed it together with flour and water. Tomorrow morning I'll put a small amount back in the fridge and I'll add more flour and water to this and let it sit overnight again. Wednesday I'll toss it in the breadmaker with the rest of the necessary ingredients and make some bread. I'm no expert at sourdough so I don't follow any standard formula (some of those bread artisans take their craft seriously! I'm just out to make a loaf of bread!). See that Pyrex bowl? The glass lids can be inverted and the bowls can be stacked which makes for nice storage in the fridge. You can read about my love for Pyrex bowls here.

And now, the Mystery! The Redeye Mystery! Tomorrow I will tell you about Elizabeth Redeye and about her trip from Ohio to Iowa riding in the back of a silver pickup.

To tantalize you a bit I will tell you Elizabeth Redeye is a gorgeous and well-kept lady. We will have many photos tomorrow.

And if you have any idea as to Elizabeth's real identity, leave a comment!

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Saturday, March 6, 2010

Wherein I Speak of Sven the Dragon Slayer and of the Dragon Himself

Yesterday, while sitting next to him, I listened as Sven the Dragon Slayer introduced himself. I had read about Sven but had never met him before. We were both waiting for blood draws for our respective cancers. Sven calls his cancer a "Dragon". And he offered to give me a sword with which to fight my own cancer. Sven looks like a Dragon Slayer. He's big! He looks as if he could have been a mighty man in the day of Dragon Slayers.

At first I was taken aback because my mind treats words literally. (I can't help it...it's the way my mind works.) It often takes some cogitation on my part before I can jump from the literal to the poetical. It's not that I "dislike" poetical...it's just that sometimes it takes a few moments to shift my mental gears to the poetical mode.

You see, when he mentioned his Dragon, my first thought was, "No, this is not some flimsy literary game, this is Cancer. Cancer with a Capital C. Cancer is Cancer. Cancer is not a dragon. To think cancer is a "dragon" is to make a game of it and it's a silly game in my estimation." I didn't speak those words, but that is what I was thinking.

Do you see how my mindset can be sometimes seen as rigid, inflexible, and a real killer of conversation? I kill a lot of conversations that way. You'd think by this time of my life I'd have figured this out and stop such killings. But, no, the killing of conversations is an ongoing thing in my life. Maybe someday.....


And so, by the time I cogitated about Sven's naming of his cancer as the "Dragon", the phlebotomist had drawn his blood and Sven had left and gone home. I wasn't able to respond. I hope to see him again for he is known to be a Dragon Slayer in the local cancer community. You can read about him in the City paper. Sven has dealt with five different cancers in the past eight years. He's fought bravely and he's fought alongside others fighting the same Dragon. But in the moment, I was not able to respond...my mind is slow.

Later that afternoon (I told you I was slow) I remembered Revelation 12:9 wherein we read, "And the great dragon was thrown down, that ancient serpent, who is called the devil and Satan, the deceiver of the whole world—he was thrown down to the earth, and his angels were thrown down with him." And it clicked.

That "ancient serpent, who is called the devil and Satan", is the same who deceived Eve in the beginning. Adam's disobedience to God (and obedience to Satan) brought death, disease, and destruction upon us all. Cancer is simply another part of that death that comes to us ever since "the fall". Living in this time and place we're going to deal with death until Christ puts a final and complete end to the work of the Dragon and to "death" itself.

I'm reminded of Rev. 21:3-4 wherein Jesus tells John in regards to His final destruction of death: "..... Behold, the dwelling place of God is with man. He will dwell with them, and they will be his people, and God himself will be with them as their God. He will wipe away every tear from their eyes, and death shall be no more, neither shall there be mourning, nor crying, nor pain anymore, for the former things have passed away."

In the meantime we wait. We fight the Dragon, that ancient Deceiver, that ancient Accuser of the Brethren (Rev. 12:10). And we fight with the Sword of the Spirit (Eph. 6:17). And we live in the great hope in Jesus' promise that there will come a day when the Dragon will be no more. Death will be no more. Cancer will be no more. And we will dwell in the presence of our Lord.

(Disclaimer: "To all who love the gentle, talking Dragons of modern literary device, I am not speaking of such dragons. Nope. I recognize poetry when I see it." she said with a wry smile. )

And Today's Word of the Day: Cogitate - transitive verb: to ponder or meditate, usually intently

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Friday, March 5, 2010

Wherein I Toot a Horn for KAMUT!

KAMUT! Yesterday I promised to tell you about Kamut!

I kinda like its name..Kamut! Natural sounding! Ancient sounding! Apparently the Kamut growing today originated with a handful of kernals obtained in the Middle East.

You can read about Kamut in the Sunday Great Falls Tribune, June 07, 1946. Just click here.

Look at this comparison of kamut (left in the photo) and red winter wheat. Look at the size difference! And the color! Doesn't that golden grain look lovely and full of goodness!

Kamut is a close relative to durum wheat. It's about the same shape as a wheat seed but a Kamut kernel is more than twice as big. And more golden in color with a nutty sweetness that makes the best pancakes in the world (at least that's the propaganda I feed my grandchildren while they are chowing down). Now I maintain that my recipe is the best but you can try kamut yourself by looking for Arrowhead Mills Pancake and Waffle Mix. Or check Bob's Red Mill for kamut flour. And no, I have no affiliation with either of these businesses whatsoever. I'm just explaining where you can buy the product and try it for yourself.

According to some websites, many people who are wheat intolerant can eat Kamut with no problems. ( I don't know if this is true or not but if you have wheat intolerance at your house, you might check this out further. )

Since Kamut is not readily available locally (check your local health foods store) I order it in 25 pound bags from Wheat Montana. The local big box store stocks their bags of wheat but so far I haven't seen the kamut on their shelves. Perhaps I could ask them to order it. Shipping is not cheap when I order it direct.

Besides pancakes I use this grain in bread, cookies, and cinnamon rolls.

I hope you get a chance to try it. I know you will be impressed with its golden goodness! And if you use this when you make pancakes for your grandkids you can make the same claim to fame as I ... the best pancakes in the world! And they'll think you're the best granny (or gramps) in the world! Trust me. Kamut Rocks!

I want to say again that I have no affiliation to any of the above-named businesses...except I love to see their products on local store shelves.

P.S. I want to thank Debby for this link to youtube about Bob Moore's Red Mill company. Kudos to Bob for his ethical thinking in regards to his employees. He GAVE the company to his employees in February 2010. Hmmm...wish I had been working there!

Thursday, March 4, 2010

Perhaps He Was Only Stretching a Bit.....

I need to add something to my last post...Rather than say the fellow "lied" to me, I should have and will say that he "stretched the truth". Perhaps he did this out of a slight hope that some patients might not lose their hair. Perhaps he "knew" that I already "knew" the answer to my own question and he "knew" I was wanting just a little bit of hope for just a little bit longer.

For whatever reason, I do highly respect the medical people who take care of me. (Nurse Diana is the Best!) And I am grateful that such medical care is not only available but that it is also just down the street. My previous chemo sessions were 65 miles down the road, fair weather or storm. Being able to do this within walking distance of home is a Godsend. (And, hey, I figure losing my hair once again is the least of my worries. It's a nuisance in terms of scarves, hats, etc., but not the most tragic circumstance in the world. I like to keep that in perspective for myself and for you.)

As for today? Several tasks are on my unwritten list today. Hubby has a black wool coat that needs the sleeves shortened. I know how to do that. I promised I would get that done so he can be wearing that coat. Before July. He won't wear it in July. Nor August, September, October. That is a cold-weather coat. Once March is past he will not need it again until cold weather. Right now we are experiencing day temps above 40 F. There will be folks out and about town today in their shirt sleeves. You wait and see!

Tasks on the unwritten list for today:
  1. Shorten sleeves on black wool coat.
  2. My sewingroom/office/craft room needs cleaning.
  3. I will be meeting with a young fellow later today who wants to get his driver's license. We're talking through the instruction manual together. And having a good time visiting while we do that.
  4. A small stack of fabric is waiting to be stitched together into a child's quilt for Project Linus. My email buddy in Ohio is a Project Linus coordinator and I will mail the quilt to her. I want to use my treadle Singer 66 to do that stitching. It's a lovely machine.
  5. Pork chops are calling from the fridge...they want to be ingested later by Hubby and myself. Today they will have their wish. (whoever heard of personified pork chops?)
  6. We volunteer as advocates for an individual and I need to finalize a many-page report with a March deadline.
  7. And, hey, at the top of the list is my intention to enjoy every moment of this day. Beginning with coffee.
Tomorrow I will tell you about KAMUT! With Photos! You may never have heard about Kamut! But tomorrow you will hear and see.

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Tuesday, March 2, 2010

Aaargh! Do We Do This AGAIN! Or "How He Lied To Me!"

That man sat there, with a slight smile on his face, his eyes squinting every so slightly and he plain out and out lied to me.

No, not my Hubby. I'm talking about my new Oncologist. A month ago he and I reviewed a list of "possibles" in terms of new chemo treatment. He picked the one at the top of the list and said, "We'll do this one." Actually it included the same drugs as before -- carboplatin and paclitaxel or carbo/taxol for short. Added to this duo would be a new drug, Avastin, which is currently being used with recurrent ovarian cancer and carries some vague promise (yah, another promise!) of efficacy in holding cancer cells at bay.

This time round, we're doing lesser dosages more often. Small doses weekly vs. high doses every third week.

So I sez to the Onc, "How about hair loss?"

He sez, "Oh, perhaps a bit of thinning."

I knew he was lying then.

I have proof of it this week. Proof by the handfull.

Funny thing. It's not nearly as traumatic this time round as it was a year ago. I actually feel rather matter-of-fact about it. Frankly, I could go bald for the next 20 years if I could feel good and live my life for those 20 years. Hair is the least of it.

Other than the hair thing, I feel really well. I have plenty of energy and I wake up every morning in a good frame of mind. No aches, no pains, no nausea. Only the hair issue. (Well, my white blood count is down but shots take care of that.)

I've heard of worse side-effects. Chemotherapy can consist of any number of drugs and any combo thereof. Some can cause major damage to the kidneys, liver, heart...not to mention "chemo brain" where your thinking gets a bit askew, a bit less than yesterday's sharp thinking. No, I don't mind the hair loss...it's just such a nuisance with all the scarves and caps and hats and drawing of eyebrows and adding eyeliner to sub for loss of lashes. It's all such a nuisance...except at shower time. Then it's easy and I can see why men shave their heads.

I do sigh a bit, though, when I look at old photos and see that lovely mop of smooth, straight, white hair that sat atop my head. I sure did have a nice hair-do.

Time for breakfast...oatmeal with raisins. Coffee.

Go hug your hair!

Added late today! Blood test today. Results? My CA-125 has gone down considerably under this new series of chemo. That's good news, Folks!

Monday, March 1, 2010

On How I Went From Mucus Green to Baking Stone

"Mucus Green?" you ask. No, its not germs, colds or phlegm. I'm talking bathroom remodel! Which is finally nearing its completion!

For the most part the "hands-on" stuff, such as gutting the room and replacing everything...that kinda stuff...was accomplished by Doug the "Plmber" (as his personalized license plate calls him) and Roger the Handyman (aka as cabinet-maker). My role, of course, was to stand back and make countless suggestions and changes as they worked. (Doug and Roger are patient fellows!)

That interval of time between gutting and reinstallation seemed the perfect time to paint. So I went over the handfull huge stack of paint chips from the paint store and picked out what seemed like a safe, neutral, medium shade of "sand".

It's so difficult to choose color! In the light from the window brown turns to green. And under a flourescent, green turns to gray. And with an incandescant bulb, all turn to mush. So I took a flying leap, picked what seemed "safe", brought home a $22 gallon of paint and slapped a sample up on the wall....a sample large enough that in the light of day, when dry, would give us a "preview" of our new bathroom color!

My sandy color should have been named "Mucus Green!" Can you believe it took days for me to decide that, no, we're not going to use this...we are going to toss give away this $22 can of paint. My frugal nature just about gave in, but in the end good sense prevailed.That can of paint is out of the house. A friend will be using it to paint closets in his rental house...I think.

Since mucus green was not my ideal of bathroom decor, I decided to try a safe "off-white". The idea was to finish the painting before Roger installed the cabinets. Makes it a whole lot easier if you can slap that stuff on the walls without worrying about the edges of cabinets, countertops, mirror, etc. So paint away I did...just in time. The cabinets went in...the vanity in place...all was well.

Or so I thought. It seemed quite lovely...except that we needed sunglasses to enter the dazzling brilliance of that room. Squinting in radiant beams of light while trying to put on makeup just didn't work. We kept two pair of sunglasses on the sink...one for him, one for me. But it just wasn't working!

So here I am...trying a third time. With a paint called "baking stone". You may or may not be aware that color has "value". The value of a color measures its darkness or lightness. I'm certain there is a Murphy's Law that states something like this...."The value of a color will be directly proportional to the area covered." In other words, a little paint chip will appear much lighter than the same color painted on a large wall. I didn't know that. When I slapped paint on the wall I realized that "Hmmm, this is darker than I thought. "

You know what! I'm liking it. And I can leave my sunglasses in my purse for "out-of-door" adventures.

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