Tuesday, June 9, 2009

I Want My Chemo!!!!!!!!

Well, fiddlesticks. Had my blood drawn this morning in anticipation of chemo tomorrow. My white blood count is low...specifically the neutrophils which are those white cells that make up the first line of defense against infection.

That means first of all that my immune system is compromised.

Secondly it means I won't be having chemo session #5 tomorrow.

I'm really bummed about that. Session #5 has been postponed twice already...my previous chemo was five weeks ago. I'm rescheduled for next week and it will have been SIX weeks since last chemo...that is, IF my counts are acceptable by next week.

I am sitting here sighing. It's bad enough to have been diagnosed with ovarian cancer but I hate it that I can't even do the chemotherapy as scheduled.

You might be wondering "how I feel". Physically I feel rather good. We walk daily. Some days we even ride our bikes. I'm puttering around the house and the yard and garden and generally keeping busy. So physically I feel good. Mentally? I'm bummed.

5 comments:

cinnamongirl93 said...

Hmm. I'm sorry that your count is low.
I want to pray for you and for your body's white cells to come into alignment with your body's defense.
I am happy to know that you are feeling well and are so active. That's important.
Please know that I am believing God with you!

Roxanne said...

I am so happy to have found you blog! It is beautiful and so honest. I pray that God will lift your dampened spirits. It's frustrating to not be able to keep on a regimin for chemo. Do you take the Neupogen shots? Or Neulasta? They really do help those WBC counts. Nice to meet you!! Blessings to you.

Marian S. said...

Judy- Sorry to hear your counts are still low. We will be praying for you. It frustrates me that there is a "schedule" to keep up with. I wonder how many patients can actually keep to it? It got me thinking....

What if....
a Cancer Clinic said this-- We don't put people on "schedules" with chemo because we realize that God in His infinite wisdom sovereignly has charge over each cell in our body, weather diseased or healthy. He is our loving creator and He alone understands best how our bodies function. We will use the technology He has given us to determine when is the best timing for each chemo session. We are confident that this method will have perfect results for the patient because we know that His timing is perfect.
Therefore, if you feel your progress is not moving fast enough, do not loose heart. Here are 2 tips to try at home:
1. Cling closely to your Savior. He is able to renew your mind and make you more like Himself
2. Please consider any frustrations you experience along the way as gifts from above to help you think more deeply on eternal matters rather than temporary matters that fade away.

Marian S. said...

Judy- Sorry to hear your counts are still low. We will be praying for you. It frustrates me that there is a "schedule" to keep up with. I wonder how many patients can actually keep to it? It got me thinking....

What if....
a Cancer Clinic said this-- We don't put people on "schedules" with chemo because we realize that God in His infinite wisdom sovereignly has charge over each cell in our body, weather diseased or healthy. He is our loving creator and He alone understands best how our bodies function. We will use the technology He has given us to determine when is the best timing for each chemo session. We are confident that this method will have perfect results for the patient because we know that His timing is perfect.
Therefore, if you feel your progress is not moving fast enough, do not loose heart. Here are 2 tips to try at home:
1. Cling closely to your Savior. He is able to renew your mind and make you more like Himself
2. Please consider any frustrations you experience along the way as gifts from above to help you think more deeply on eternal matters rather than temporary matters that fade away.

Tracey said...

Awww bless ya.. its awful isn't it when chemo is delayed.. i had a countdown calendar of when my hair would start to grow and my chemo delay cost me 2 days of hair growth lol..

Thinking of you xx